The Responsibilities of Being a Zen Student

hermitA Zen teacher is someone who has done zazen for a long time and allows — tolerates may be a better word — others to join their practice.

A few years ago I did a talk at a Zen center in New York City where several people seemed to be hostile to what I had to say. One of the things I said that seemed to be a trigger was that in the Zen teacher/Zen student relationship, responsibility goes both ways. I, as a teacher, have a responsibility to someone who wants to be my student and the student also has an equal responsibility to me.

It seems weird to me when people find this idea weird. I am not the first person to ever see things like this. In fact, I’d say even a cursory look into the history of Zen reveals that many —perhaps even most — of the Zen teachers of the past thought of it pretty much the same way.

Take the old koan “Why did Bodhidharma come to the East?” for example. If all you know about Bodhidharma is that he brought Zen practice to China, you might not get the point of this question. You have to know how Bodhidharma brought Zen to China for the question to make any sense.

See, Bodhidharma did not enter China as a missionary with a desire to convert the Chinese heathens to the Good News of Zen. It was quite the opposite. He went there to find a peaceful cave where he could meditate undisturbed. And for nine years he got his wish. But after a while people started hearing about this strange hermit up in the mountains and began to wonder what he was doing in that cave.

At first, when people tried to join Bodhidharma in his cave he told them to bugger off. He was probably like that guy in Life of Brian, the hermit in the hole in the ground whose vow of silence was broken when Brian stepped on his foot. I’m sure most of these wanna-be students gave up after being chased away. But some folks were persistent, so poor Bodhidharma finally gave in and allowed five of them to share his private space. These five ended up being the first Chinese Zen teachers.

The point of the koan is that Bodhidharma just wanted to sit. Bringing Zen to China was something that happened along the way.

Getting back to New York, though. One of the people who was upset by my insistence that Zen students had responsibilities to their teachers said she felt the duty of a Zen teacher was to “hold the student wisely.” Her voice was cracking and she looked like she might even cry as she said this. I can’t recall what I said in reply, but I felt then and I still feel now that she was completely wrong. Zen teachers have no responsibility to “hold the student wisely.” In fact if they try to do so, they are actually harming their students.

Learning from a Zen teacher is like an apprenticeship. The teacher isn’t really there to be a teacher as such. It’s like if a young painter finds an older painter whose work he admires. He goes to the older painter and asks to learn. The older painter probably just wants to paint in peace, not teach. But maybe she’s a nice person and says, “OK. If you clean my brushes and stay out of my way I’ll show you how I work.” The apprentice, if he’s any good, will not try to mimic the teacher. He will try to learn a way to make his own kind of paintings.

He will also understand when the older painter just wants to be left alone and he will not be a pain in the ass.

I think quite a lot of the sexual and other scandals in the world of Zen and in other forms of spiritual apprenticeship could be avoided if more students (and more teachers!) of meditation understood this aspect of the relationship a bit better. People respond in strange ways when they’re working on a project that’s important to them and lots of folks start getting in their face demanding things and impinging on their time. This even goes for when the project you’re working on is yourself. My guess is that a lot of these scandalized teachers really just wanted to be left alone, even if they themselves didn’t consciously realize it.

A while back I got into it with someone who said that Zen was one of the “helping professions.” It really isn’t. When you try to turn it into a helping profession you end up creating a world of trouble for everyone involved. Helping professions are fine, by the way. It’s just that Zen can never be one of them any more than a painter is suddenly thrust into the “helping profession” the moment she consents to allow an apprentice into her private painting space.

My friend Rebecca in Hebden Bridge, UK gave me a document called Select Passages from the Perfect and Sudden Ten Modes of Contemplation translated by Stevenson (the print-out doesn’t give his first name) of the University of Kansas. It’s an ancient piece of writing about Zen practice and Zen teaching from China. Referring to teaching Zen to others it says, “At first one’s efforts perhaps prove beneficial. But while benefitting others is noble, one neglects and harms one’s own practice in the process.” Later it says about some famous Chinese masters, “Come to the end of their lives, they all repented (teaching Zen).” Ain’t that the truth!

Having said all this, I wonder how it applies to someone like me doing what I do. I travel around the world teaching people about Zen. I get paid for it too. Not a lot, but I can afford a small one-bedroom apartment in LA. At least for the time being. I’m not sitting in a cave. Not exactly.

Yet in every phase of my career as a teacher, I’ve done what I’ve done because someone asked me to. Nishijima Roshi asked me to take dharma transmission then he asked me to lead his Saturday Zen classes. He and my other teacher Tim both said I should try writing a book about Zen. My friend Kee Kee asked me to teach Zen classes in Santa Monica, which became the foundation of the group I lead in LA. My international travels have all been prompted by invitations. But because I do this, my own practice necessarily suffers for it.

I hope this doesn’t sound like complaining. I’m trying to explain, not complain. I like what I do. Don’t get me wrong there. I really enjoy the heck out of it. I like meeting sincere people and teaching them about this practice and I hope a few of them benefit from what I do. Even so, I’m not really in this business out of a desire to help or to be a teacher, at least not as such.

As things progress, the invitations increase. I feel like, at this point, even if I tried to quit, people would seek me out just like they did poor old Bodhidharma.

So these days I’m doing the opposite of telling people to bugger off. I’m starting a center in LA. I’m trying to find a way to accommodate all the out-of-town requests I get rather than turning so many down. It could end up being a huge mistake. I don’t know.

We’ll see, I suppose.

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49 Responses

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  1. Mumbles
    Mumbles September 20, 2015 at 8:01 am |

    “But because I do this, my own practice necessarily suffers for it.”

    As a “Zen teacher” isn’t “this” your practice?

    It all reminds me of when I first went to college and for some reason got lost in a building and found myself in a Psychology class (I was on my way to an English class, I think). The teacher asked around why people were interested in taking the class, and the overwhelming response was to “help” people or to “help” themselves.

    I got the hell out of there.

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_btCZWi1jkg

    1. Mumbles
      Mumbles September 20, 2015 at 9:24 am |

      And whats all this “practice” about, is there going to be a recital?

      1. mtto
        mtto September 20, 2015 at 10:08 am |

        I used to have the same complaint about the word “practice.” It’s practice as in “the practice of medicine” or a “lawyer’s practice,” not as in practicing in preparation for a musical performance.

        1. mb
          mb September 20, 2015 at 12:07 pm |

          Hi mtto – sorry to be off topic with this, but you’re the webmaster here these days, right? I reported a bug with the posting routine a couple of threads ago and that post was mysteriously removed, without the problem having been dealt with. What happens is that the widget responsible for allowing 30 minutes to edit a post has gone haywire (at least for me) in that it replace “minutes” with “undefined”, and it never expires! That means I can always edit my posts hours, days and weeks after I’ve made them. And although there is some kind of vague element of Buddhist poetics operating here (what is time anyway?) , this is a technical problem that ought to be fixed. Probably nobody else can see this, so here’s a link to a screenshot of what I see:

          http://www.truby.com/xzq/hcz-undefined.png

          You might want to show this to your WP consultant guy.

          1. Mumbles
            Mumbles September 20, 2015 at 12:27 pm |

            mtto, I was just funnin.’
            ………………………………..&
            I’ve noticed that, too, mb, but assumed that we were gifted with going back to the good old days when you could edit for eternity…

          2. mtto
            mtto September 20, 2015 at 1:09 pm |

            If you would like to report a bug, please use the contact form, not the comments. Even better, if the bug is with a WordPress plugin, please write to the developer, although chances are someone already has, as in this case. I just updated the plugin, and the new version is supposed to “fix the timer issue on some sites.” If you don’t know what a WordPress plugin is, just have faith in the power of the internet.

            If bug reports are posted to the comments, I will probably/maybe delete them, and maybe look into them if they are actually impacting functionality. In this case the bug was purely cosmetic, and the developer is very regular with updates and bug fixes.

            Before I installed the “Simple Comment Editing” plugin, I believe there was no comment editing on the site. The plugin defaults to 5 minutes, which I thought was a little short.

          3. mb
            mb September 21, 2015 at 10:21 am |

            If you would like to report a bug, please use the contact form, not the comments. Even better, if the bug is with a WordPress plugin, please write to the developer, although chances are someone already has, as in this case. I just updated the plugin, and the new version is supposed to “fix the timer issue on some sites.”

            OK, will make all future bug reports with the contact form. Just to let you know on this item, that the plugin update didn’t do anything, the “problem” still remains. Not that I care! I’m perfectly happy to have unlimited post editing access instead of 30 minutes, but wasn’t sure that my original post was noted when I saw it was removed. This is kind of like in Monopoly when you get a Community Chest card that says “bank error in your favor”!

    2. Zafu
      Zafu September 20, 2015 at 3:44 pm |

      Would it have freaked you out if someone answered, “because someone asked me to”?

    3. drocloc
      drocloc September 21, 2015 at 7:18 am |

      What a blessing. Hope you die in the saddle. Gassho

  2. Dog Star
    Dog Star September 20, 2015 at 8:56 am |

    Shouldering responsibility requires sustained effort, which seems to be distasteful to many people (including me at times). To some, as illustrated by the “hold me wisely” outlook you encountered, it’s downright frightening.

    1. Zafu
      Zafu September 20, 2015 at 4:10 pm |

      Have you ever read the Shimano archive ( http://www.shimanoarchive.com )? Indeed it is frightening.

      1. drocloc
        drocloc September 21, 2015 at 7:21 am |

        A butt holder that types! Did Shimano SCARE you? Good typing.

    2. Michel
      Michel September 21, 2015 at 8:00 am |

      Dog Star: “Shouldering responsibility (…) is downright frightening”:
      I do agree with that!!!

  3. Mark Foote
    Mark Foote September 20, 2015 at 11:20 am |

    Thanks, Brad, for continuing to write.

    I write a lot here in the comments thread, and it’s been a great help to me. I hope that the fact that people enjoy the comments as well as your posts means that you will continue to be able to afford to do what people ask you to do, at least for awhile (I’ll be throwing something in the hat soon).

    “At first one’s efforts perhaps prove beneficial. But while benefitting others is noble, one neglects and harms one’s own practice in the process.” Later it says about some famous Chinese masters, “Come to the end of their lives, they all repented (teaching Zen).”

    Because Kobun said “take your time with the lotus”, I worked twenty five years to sit the lotus for forty minutes. Twenty years after that, the first twenty-five minutes I find ease in the lotus; the next five I find my legs; from thirty to thirty-five I find myself on the bridge; the last five I find the involuntary activity that pressurizes the fluid ball of the abdomen/the comprehension of the long or short of inhalation or exhalation.

    Walking around Santa Cruz, I see my own unhappiness, and I go for the long or short of inhalation or exhalation. I’m walking around blind. Who does this help besides me!

    I don’t want to teach Zen. I want to be like Gautama, able to be happy without moving for a day, for two days, for seven days. I’m a greedy son of a gun, but nobody’s asked me to be anything else. Or maybe it’s because I can’t quite pull it off all day, much less for two days or seven days, that nobody’s asking me to be anything more than a friend.

  4. woken
    woken September 20, 2015 at 12:12 pm |

    Bodhidharma went to the East because we think him. Actually Bodhidharma went nowhere.

    People pester Brad because he advertises himself. If he doesn’t want to be pestered, don’t advertise.

    Self advertising is a relic of the slave mentality.

    1. Zafu
      Zafu September 20, 2015 at 3:42 pm |

      He only advertises because someone asked him to.

      1. Shinchan Ohara
        Shinchan Ohara September 21, 2015 at 12:06 am |

        Hey! That provides meaning. Can I be your student?

        1. Zafu
          Zafu September 21, 2015 at 10:33 am |

          Any good sheep must comply with your request, because you asked.

  5. Hungry Ghost
    Hungry Ghost September 20, 2015 at 1:55 pm |

    So then why did Bodhidharma come to the East?

    1. Shinchan Ohara
      Shinchan Ohara September 20, 2015 at 3:06 pm |

      To get to the other side.

    2. Zafu
      Zafu September 20, 2015 at 4:05 pm |

      Because someone asked him to, and like a good sheep he went.

  6. Cygni
    Cygni September 20, 2015 at 2:27 pm |

    People are never satisfied.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=STaCouMMWhM

  7. Shinchan Ohara
    Shinchan Ohara September 20, 2015 at 3:14 pm |

    Why did the Chicken cross from the West? Because he was stapled to the Bhikkhu.

  8. Zafu
    Zafu September 20, 2015 at 3:35 pm |

    “Why did Bodhidharma come to the East?”… He went there to find a peaceful cave where he could meditate undisturbed.
    ~ Brand Warmer

    They don’t have peaceful caves in the West? Lol

    You’re spinning a narrative, Mr. Warmer, that’s what shepherds do. That is your only real responsibility. Preaching and developing a system of meaning. And this cannot be done alone in a cave. Religion is necessarily a group activity.

    as a teacher, I’ve done what I’ve done because someone asked me to.

    I suppose this is an appropriate statement in a blog post about “The Responsibilities of Being a Zen Student.”

    I wouldn’t fault you for not wanting to take responsibility. As always, I only fault you for being dishonest.

    1. Son of Zafu
      Son of Zafu September 21, 2015 at 8:47 am |

      CataAreInfinite=CosmicBrainz=SamsaricHelicoid=Zepher
      =Zafu

      Meaning is our true destiny. We do not find the meaning of life by ourselves alone-we find it with meaning.

    2. drocloc
      drocloc September 21, 2015 at 10:53 am |

      Hello,
      Typing. So cute. Don’t you stop! Oh, no you DON’T!

  9. Sue
    Sue September 21, 2015 at 12:18 am |

    I like your attitude about being equal (on a human basis), and on responsibilties on both sides. I agree, especially on the last.

    Nevertheless, I dislike your above expressed attitude about how your Zen practice suffers because of working with students. I mean, a Zen teacher und a Zen student have an equal worth – that’s what I am agreeing on. But they have different … skills, experience, whatever. And, let’s face it, as a student I’m happy with sitting and sometimes finding some peace in it, because it’s not very likeli, to sometime see and beginn to understand, what a teacher understood. It’s probably a kind of knowledge that’s beyond words, logic, perception with my senses…
    Maybe the girl was refering to that deep knowledge and insight, that might give many more ways of acting in meeting with students, than the students have the other way around. Of course the student has to go by him-/herself and has to take the responsibility for everything he/she does on the way. But if the teacher is kind of showing the way, some wise approach to this might help.

    By-the-way: your texts/books speak quiet affectionately about your teachers, Nishiyima Roshi and Tom. Did they give you the feeling of being a waste of time? I assume, they didn’t…

    Sorry for my English, I’m German…I hope it’s understandable, what I mean.

    1. Sue
      Sue September 21, 2015 at 3:52 am |

      I mean Tim as your second teacher, of course. Sorry for the spelling mistake..

    2. Fred
      Fred September 21, 2015 at 9:29 am |

      There is no deep experience that a person has. You drop the body-mind or you don’t, and a teacher can’t help you.

    3. Zafu
      Zafu September 21, 2015 at 12:13 pm |

      I dislike your above expressed attitude about how your Zen practice suffers because of working with students.

      In Hardcore zen teacher and student have equal responsibility to each other, Sue. That means that the students practice suffers just as much as the teachers. Probably more so, because they don’t know how to paint good, yet.

  10. Cygni
    Cygni September 21, 2015 at 5:16 am |

    Better to have been blind and deaf from the beginning
    A hermit dwelling in your true abode

    https://meaningness.wordpress.com/2013/12/12/emptiness-zen-tantra-dzogchen/

    1. Cygni
      Cygni September 21, 2015 at 7:05 am |

      People can have a lot of crazy projections about the so called spiritual path and the roll of teachers…

      Own your own projections

      http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K1Ym7r7SxsY

      1. Cygni
        Cygni September 21, 2015 at 9:12 am |

        This one is for the Pisces fishes.

        http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mojrtlI9mVg

        1. Cygni
          Cygni September 21, 2015 at 9:14 am |

          A Pope I can get behind, at least on economy, climate change, and militarism.

          http://blogs.scientificamerican.com/cross-check/pope-francis-jimmy-carter-and-the-greatest-threat-to-peace/

  11. Mark Foote
    Mark Foote September 21, 2015 at 8:16 am |

    Out to see Andy McKee at Moe’s Alley (in Santa Cruz) last night. Some beautiful tunes, many of them Travis picking to my surprise, but toward the end he just rocked:

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UY5CB6r9id0

    so I got up on the floor. Walking that log bridge, and comprehending the long and short. The weird thing is, that at the point where my body is asking me to comprehend the long and short, there is infinite space, there is single-pointedness of mind, there is no coughing or sighing (thanks for making the trip, Bodhidharma; see you in the fall).

    The light fantasia.

    The article that spoke of something beyond emptiness, and made the claim that Buddhism doesn’t go there; the third of the further states, “the plane of no-thing”, is followed by “the plane of neither perception and sensation nor yet not perception and sensation”, which is followed by the cessation of “the plane of neither perception and sensation nor yet not perception and sensation”. Realizing that “the plane of neither perception and sensation nor yet not perception and sensation” is a thing thought-out, a thing constructed, and that all that is thought out must come to an end, one attains the cessation of “the plane of neither perception and sensation nor yet not perception and sensation”; so said Gautama.

    Yet his way of life was “the concentration on in-breaths and out-breaths”, which was a thing perfect in itself.

    Moments of happiness, I have some work to do finding the range to the surface of the log under my left leg, out on the floor.

    1. Fred
      Fred September 21, 2015 at 9:47 am |

      Wikipedia:
      “Rigpa is a central concept in Dzogchen.[33] It is “reflexively self-aware primordial wisdom,”[33] which is self-reflexively aware of itself as unbounded wholeness.[34][quote 2] The analogy given by Dzogchen masters is that one’s true nature is like a mirror which reflects with complete openness, but is not affected by the reflections; or like a crystal ball that takes on the colour of the material on which it is placed without itself being changed. The knowledge that ensues from recognizing this mirror-like clarity (which cannot be found by searching nor identified)[35] is called rigpa.”

      1. a primordial awareness which is aware of itself = zazen sits zazen
      2. it cannot be found by searching nor identified = goaless sitting
      3. Brad cannot help you; drop the body-mind

      https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XUhWlzsM_GU

  12. sri_barence
    sri_barence September 21, 2015 at 1:40 pm |

    When I first started formal Zen study, I was just 23 years old. I wanted the teachers to take me by the hand and guide me to enlightenment (or whatever). They did not do this; instead I received the bare minimum instruction in the practice forms. Nobody even told me the right way to do zazen. “Just sit on that cushion on that mat over there.” That’s all. On top of that, in private kong-an interviews, they asked me questions like, “If you were the Zen Master, how would you answer?” So I was expected to teach myself!

    This was frustrating at first, but I have come to appreciate it. If the teachers actually “taught” me something, then that would be their understanding, not mine. Also, it would imply that there was something that they had “got,” that I hadn’t. But Zen teaches that we all “have it” already, and in fact there is nothing to “get” in the first place.

    Speaking of kong-ans (koans for you Nippon-o-philes), when a visitor asked Joju, “Why did the ancestor come from the West?” He replied, “The cypress tree in the garden.” Was that teaching or not?

    1. mb
      mb September 21, 2015 at 2:20 pm |

      “The cypress tree in the garden.” Was that teaching or not?

      Sure! It’s a poetic way of saying “Why are you even asking this question?” “What possible difference could an answer to this question have in your actual life?” and “Next!”

      Of course this is only my unqualified opinion having had zero Rinzai Zen exposure and minimal Soto – did a 3-day sesshin with Jiyu Kennett in 1975 – and all we got to do then was stare at walls and walk.

  13. Mark Foote
    Mark Foote September 21, 2015 at 8:46 pm |

    The place where even a needle cannot enter, I leave aside for now, but tell me, what’s it like when the foamy waves are flooding the sky? To test, I cite this, look!

    “A monk asked Hsiang Lin, ‘What is the meaning of the Patriarch’s coming from the West?’

    Hsiang Lin answered, ‘Sitting for a long time becomes toilsome’.”

    … Since the old days, very many answers have been given for the meaning of the Patriarch’s coming from the West. Only Hsiang Lin, right here in this case, has cut off the tongues of everyone on earth; there is no place for you to calculate or make up rationalizations. The Monk asked, “What is the meaning of the Patriarch’s coming from the West?” Lin said, “Sitting for a long time becomes toilsome.” This could be called flavorless words, flavorless phrases, flavorless talk blocks off people’s mouths and leaves you no place to show your energy. If you would see, then just see immediately. If you don’t see, it’s urgent you avoid entertaining intellectual understanding.

    (case 17, Blue Cliff Record, tr. T. Cleary pg 110)

    Leaving aside for now the place where a needle will not enter, what’s it like when foamy waves are flooding the sky? The bathroom floor?

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FnYWfVPT5aI

    1. Mumbles
      Mumbles September 22, 2015 at 4:53 am |

      https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anthology_of_American_Folk_Music

      Etc…

      Does this surprise you that musicians of different genres often like/are influenced by all kinds of music?

      1. Mumbles
        Mumbles September 22, 2015 at 6:30 pm |

        Seriously, why this long book quote? What does Jimmie Rodgers have to do with anything? Were you reading this and so moved by it that you wanted to share? I mean, it’s kind of interesting for what its worth, and I’m no stickler for staying on subject in these comments, but this is kind of out of far left field.

        Oh, and the *rings bell* shit is pretty tired. Go ahead and do it if you think you’re being cute or a smart ass…Whatever “rings” your bell.

  14. Kyla
    Kyla September 22, 2015 at 4:29 am |

    As a student, no one can answer questions about yourself, what is going on in zazen for you. It’s like anything else, you have to rely mainly on yourself with some assistance at times from others. I work in social work and nothing gets accomplished with clients if they see me having all the answers to their problems. Anything lasting in peoples’ lives has to come from them.

    1. Fred
      Fred September 22, 2015 at 5:59 am |

      ” If you would see, then just see immediately. If you don’t see, it’s urgent you avoid entertaining intellectual understanding.”

      And 60 other similar reiterations.

    2. Zafu
      Zafu September 22, 2015 at 8:33 am |

      For some, all you have to do is ask and people will comply.

  15. Shinchan Ohara
    Shinchan Ohara September 22, 2015 at 6:20 am |

    Q: Why did the patriarch come East?

    Femizenimist: Fuck the patriarchy, Loretta

    1. Shinchan Ohara
      Shinchan Ohara September 22, 2015 at 6:29 am |

      HardcoZafuist: What is it that doesn’t provide meaning?

      A:

  16. Zafu
    Zafu September 22, 2015 at 10:26 am |

    Lol.

    Because there are too many fucking feminists in the West.

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